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No More Friends Only! [10 Dec 2006|03:05pm]
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Dear LJ,

It looks as though i've been neglecting you. (Again). To make up for lost time, i'm spiffying up a bit. Sooner or later, your getting a new coat of paint.

To all of my friends: sup dawgs? i'm so sorry i've been ignoring you all! Being a sophmore in High School is proving difficult as well as troublesome, but boy what a ride! Exams are this upcoming week signaling the end of the first sememster, and then things only become much more complicated.

But the good news is that that means no more Mr Allan! Wohoo! XD

i'll be poking around for a while, they i'll give you guys a real entry, i swear.

~Eevee

11 will fight to save you

Friends Only [26 Jun 2006|04:35am]
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Friends Only [09 Jan 2006|10:54pm]
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just don't care [22 Dec 2005|07:49pm]
We buried him today, buried Eric.

When I got up I only found the energy to throw on some clothes and brush my hair, any ideas of make up far from my mind. My stomach hurt so much I thought I would be sick, I really didn't want to have to say goodbye to him by putting him in a hole in the ground. Mom said I didn't have to go, but in the back of my mind I was convinced that I had to- for Eric and for Hofuru just so I could be there to show support and respect for them and their family.

I kept telling myself 'deep breaths' and 'in, out, in, out' to remember just to breathe as I walked up to the church, Captain Young held the door open for us and I think he recognized me because of the nod in my direction. I couldn't help but be a bit twitchy; Hofuru was the embodyment of calm when I hugged her. With so many people around, sitting there with my parents, I was tempted to ask if we could just leave when mom pointed out Naru walking down the isle. Saying I was releaved would be an understatement, just seeing her I felt like a boalder had been lifted off my chest and I could breathe again. As it turned out she had gotten in five hours prior and, running on two hours of sleep, had gotten ready and headed over right after throwing her bags in her room.

Naru and I talked for a few minutes, Hofuru was to sit upfront with her mom and dad while we sat in the back. Naru told me about her trip, and from there we jumped back and forth on different subjects- how Hofuru and herself were going to kill me because I have Gaara and Kakashi, what we could possibly do to make Hofuru feel better, why there was a piece of gum on the ceiling- before the cerimony started.

It opened with pictures of Eric set to music, the first one I knew to be his favorite song even though I am unsure of the name. I was so set on not crying to be strong for Hofuru and Naru had been distracted from grieving while on her trip that hearing that song and seeing Eric forever frozen with his smile Naru broke first and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her and let my tears fall silently.

There must have been at least 100 ROTC members in the first few rows, I thought most of them to be Eric's platoon while the rest I knew to be close friends of Eric. Matt, Eric's best friend, did something that I thought to be very touching- he got up on stage and played the guitar while singing a song he had written the night Eric died. Christina sang a song her friend had written called "Worlds Apart" and her voice was so beautiful that all I could do was sob. And of course Sheehan had to do something he got up and sang Amazing Grace, even though it amused me to see Sheehan in full ROTC attire up there singing it only made my tears increase.

Then Captain Young stood up and read Olg Glory, while some ROTC members passed the flag to his mother in what was a symbolicly poetic moment. Half way through his speech I lost my control; Naru only wrapped her arms around me to show some comfort while I cried my silent tears.

I guess by the time we found ourselves at the grave side I was all out of tears to cry, but as I saw Hofuru, her mom, and her dad saying their final goodbyes to Eric I died a little inside. Whereas Hofuru and her mother simply took a rose off the coffin, the closeness seeming painful to them, Hofuru's father got to his feet and kissed the cascit and whispered something like he was telling the wind a story.

I found that I felt very out of place at the little get together at the church that fallowed, everyone that returned was a part of ROTC and I didn't feel very welcomed or needed. When Hofuru did arrive she snuck off to talk with Bethal so it was just me and Naru for the most part, so rather than just sit and feel awkward we opted to wander around the three story building.

After running around in the dark on the 3rd floor we returned to the conferince room and were greeted by Gunny- well Naru was with his normal 'Mrs. Cooper' greeting, but Naru didn't hear him so I nudged her and directed her to say hello properly. Then he realize who I was and asked how I was doing before exusing himself. I always liked Gunny,and I know that him, Captian Young, and Master Chief will take good care of my chans in my absence.

And now I'm home, about to hope in the shower. We actually got home at around 3 and I spent the time reading and re-reading an article in the newspaper about Eric. Its touching that Mrs. Julie is remembering the good rather than just grieving at loosing him, and remembering the two of them singing American Pie in the kitchen is enough to make me smile and wheep all at the same time.

A while ago I remember reading something about dbnext's mother and wishing there was something I could do but never getting the courage to actually post and say something. Thankfully his mother is fine now, but after everything thats happened and I had read the entry perhaps I could have found my voice easier.

Gomen.

~Eevee

P.S.-
Hofuru has informed me that their naming a scholorship after Eric, the Eric Collins Scholorship or something to that affect. I thought it had a nice ring to it, and Hofuru noted how nice it would be if perhaps her senior year she might get it; I think it fitting- Eric might be gone from this life but he's living on in so many ways, like sweet poetic justic.
10 will fight to save you

x-posted at deviantart [22 Dec 2005|01:11am]
'I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with things around here, I really am. I was on that posting spree and actually working on things again, but now I just can't find the energy.

I hope you can forgive me.

Eric's viewing was tonight, and now all I am is depressed. It was beautiful, flowers all but swallowed the church and drowned us with their abundance. Then there was Eric who, as you can imagine, depressed me. He's always been a warm hearted person with such lively features, but to see him lying there in that cascit looking like paper-mecha my mind refused to register it as Eric for the longest time.

Then it hit me that this was death, in its truest form.

I'm so used to seeing death in its opening stages through gradual procession that the change was subtle and I could say how peaceful and how much my relatives looked like they were sleeping because their body had gone naturally. But Eric had died so suddenly that I couln't make the adaption- I never saw him in the hospital bed by the grace of God- and I don't think that he looked so wax like because of a bad make-up job as my mom had convinced herself.

I'm done dumping my sad thoughts upon you all- thats all I seem to bring anyone anymore is just bad news.

But you wanna know the saddest parts of this young mans death, at least to me?

Eric was a senior in highschool, he was an active member of ROTC and a friend to just about everyone. He didn't think twice about climbing that tree even if it was 20 feet high, Eric was more than likely just thinking of how to impress his girlfriend at the time. When he fell from that tree he slid down the trunk on his back, rubbing off all the skin on his back, then landed on his shoulder with enough force to cause massive and permant brain damage- Eric, the guy with the well build body from 4 fours in ROTC and being able to run a mile in less than 5 minutes.

Even though he died six days ago and had been accepted to 2 collages the week before, today his family got the phone call that he had been accepted into UF.

But four of his organs were going to kids so that four other familys could have hope this Christmas; a 16-year-old will be recieving his lungs, someone get's his liver, another his kidneys, and a 3-year-old is going to get the best heart in the world.

Gomen.

~Eevee
'
6 will fight to save you

[16 Dec 2005|02:17am]
'Anubis,

Been a while since we actually carried on one of our normal conversations, eh nii-san??

A lot seems to has transpired over the last 2 hours, and well.... I just felt like I really needed to email you. See I went to the movies with some friends from school that I've known for God knows how long, we got home at around 12 after dropping everyone off and just as I was getting out of the car my cell phone rang. When I answered it was my friend Hofuru (I think I've mentioned her in conversation once or twice) and she sounded upset. Asking what was wrong she answered 'Erik's head' which didn't register to me at first, then I went numb.

After some more choked sobs it turns out that Erik (Hofuru's older brother) had fallen from a tree of about 20 feet while trying to impress his girlfriend and caused massive brain damage and intense bleed around the brain, and was indeed brain dead. The family had gone to the hospital and Naru (another of my friends) was with Hofuru and that she had called because she just really needed to hear my voice right then. So at around 12:30 ish mom and me headed over to Hofuru's house to wait for her family to get home because all I could think about was comforting my friend and, as it turns out, we waited until around 1:12 before she returned to gather some things to spend the night at a Mrs. Thomas's house for the night so she could be there in the morning when they took Erik off life-support.

I helped Hofuru pack while Mrs. Thomas and mom went around turning off all the lights and locking the doors because the family had just left without so much as turning off the TV. The hardest part to watch was Hofuru go over to her brother's room and shut the door, practically on the verge of tears, in a gesture of really accepting that Erik wasn't coming back- she knew it was true but until that point I don't think she really wanted to accept it, but with the motion of shutting the door almost confirmed it in an all to real way.

The more I thought about it, my thoughts went to you and how I would meltdown if you died- but even more so- and that I would probably never know.

So I guess what I'm really trying to say is that even though we've never really met before, but I truely view you as an older brother and I want you to know that I love you as if you had always been my brother.

Just thought I'd let you know, even if it might seem selfish of me.

~Eevee'
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Friends Only [08 Nov 2005|01:04am]
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